I’m sorry im such a fuck up. I wish you’d just give up this fucking standard you want me to live up to. I’m sorry I gave you so many dissapointments. I’m sorry you decided to keep me, but im here damn it. In this cold ass world, where you don’t get love from who you want, but I expect it from my mother. Smh Some days im strong enough to ignore how you treat me, but sometimes I just break, break down. Im like the black sheep of this fucking family and you made it this way. I hate that you play favorites but I hate even more that you deny it bcus you know that if you admitted it, if you heard yourself say it, you’d know that doing that is wrong. Im just emotionally drained. I need you to be my mom, I need you to be there for me, support me, comfort me. Not put me down or ignore me. Smh I didnt ask to be born. Im just here. Im sorry. Thats all I can say….